Record logs

Changing POV's in dreams [09/Sept/22]

Hello! This is Wilbur speaking, I'll be the one presenting this post for today since I am basically the reason why it happened 😅.

So, picture you're having a dream, a normal one (...if dreams were actually normal), you're just going around and then you're not yourself anymore, someone came to front and took over without even noticing. Well, this happened to us.

The events that happen in our dreams tend to reference on whatever happened in our life, so me starting to dream about texting my boyfriend and the enviroment changing to known places was something that I did, before Berry took over because of a front triggers of theirs happened.

We asked after waking up to another system "Hey, have this happened to you?" and they said "yes, it has, a couple of times", so we ran that conclution that we have not gone insane, it would've been worse if they said "No" considering the fact that I fell asleep fronting and then Berry woke up fronting next morning.

So that was something.

It is weird.

The real question here though, is that if this is one of the reasons why our sleeping pattern changed so drastically ever since. But, only a person can assume, the real answer is something that only the universe might have.

"Overlapping identities" [21/August/22]

This is one of the most common phenomenons I've heard ever since I started my research on the median system due to me experiencing it (yes, we do research before evaluation). A lot of pages and sources have been telling their experiences about this and I am no stranger to this either.

Before explaining i just want to emphasize that this is my personal experience, this can be different for every other system out there and it's fine, everyone experiences stuff differently.

In our case, the identity overlap is not a daily occurrence but is still very common, so common in fact we had to make a new proxy on Pk bot because of this. Taking an example for this, Wil has been lately one of the most common one to overlap with me. A list of characteristic to this phenomenon goes like this:

  • His and my mannerisms mixed
  • We mix our way of calling people
  • Our typing style combines as well
  • Both our names are valid to refer to us
  • Gender is somehow mixed as well

  • These are a few of the changes I can think of off the top of my head that we’ve noticed when this happens.

    "Minor illusion phenomenon: Your brain using the presence sense for you to be able to feel your headmate by your side while you mentally envision them" [6/August/22]

    Ok so, first of, yes the name is literally stolen from a D&D spell. In our defense, this is one of the only ways we could kind of explain this experience.

    So, this happened to us once like 2 or 3 weeks ago. My mood was not very good at the moment and one of my facets (Wil) seemed to be in the same page. So we started talking and talking, analyzing our situation until we just, hugged. This is the center of this log.

    This hug, that apparently lasted like 24 to 48 hrs, is something that I would describe as a phantom sensation. I am not unfamiliar with phantom limbs, I get the sensation of them every once in a while, I would describe this experience as something similar to this phenomenon, except we are not talking about libms, we are talking about a full on precense, the precense of one of my facets.

    As for the visual parts, of course I couldn't physically see him, but I did envisioned him beside me. What this envisioning seem to do though is that it would pull me out of my surroundings a little bit and make me focus more on how he looked, how was he beside, details to then "see" him as part of my surroundings too.

    I wanna add, I did ask around some close friends about this, if this is something that should be considered kind of weird because, in some way, I am technically hugging myself mentally since this is one of my facets. They said that it isn't at all and that this could be considered as "headmate support". Which, honestly, sure.

    Also, Wil was seemed to be pretty tired after this so he just went back inside the 2nd night. I didn't heard from him for approximately 3 to 4 days after that.

    "Void state / Lack of identity Phenomenon" [1/August/22]

    This is a state/phenomenon that has happened to me so many times in daily life, the strength is variable and inmensurable. Figured I could explain a bit about it and figure out if this isn't that rare and or could be linked to the whole median situation.

    «Where in situations where identity isnt involved or is ignored and, therefore, forgotten about. Tends to happen when we are hyperfixiated on something (ex. a proyect that requires our full focus and attention), on something that doesn't necessarily require that much attention (ex. Washing dishes, folding clothes, repetitive stuff that is now a habit) or when we are too focued on uninteractive binging (ex. watching series / youtube videos, mindlessly scrolling, etc.)

    In this phenomenon there is absolutely no thinking, the body's defence mechanisms/instincts seem to still function completely as to protect from posible threats as well as it bring a state of semi, if not, non verbal. In the case of semi-nonverbal, the voice seem to be too weak and or too low.

    Then, again, this could easily be a common occurrence for other mental neurodivergence such as autism.

    The way that we are "brought back to reality" (grounded) is by sensorial external input (ex. Getting called, something else catching our attention, loud noise, touch, etc.).

    As much as these descriptors are very alike with dissociation our experience and feel about it indicates that this is way softer or weaker than it.»